未邦訳じゃなく未発表の英語小説です。一応隔日連載の予定。 著者はレディー・ジャネットという2ちゃんねる住人期待の新人。校正してもらうどころか、推敲すらしていないので、間違いがやたらと多いと思いますので、 お気づきになったときは、ご指摘ねがいます。 Watch Me Now I smelled oil and blood. At once, the man tumbled down. His arms and legs bent in upon his body. He rolled over and began to go into a spasm of coughing, rocking from side to side, but the fire never released him from much pain. He stated to struggle more violently, and fell from the cliff at last. Following him, we went down the slope.…… I had been picturing the man’s death over and over again for five years now, ever since I had found out what had happened that summer. The man was gibbering as he tried to pull away from the blonde, who was holding down him with grief after thrusting a shovel into his shoulder. The man’s hair was wet and matted with petrol. His face was blistered and expanded. He opened his mouth, desperately moaning out. A commitment to murder is essentially an intellectual thing, so we refuse to take it sentimentally. For nearly two month the intent of kill had been source of my energy, but I felt as though the spectacle of it was eroding me from the bottom of body. I felt uneasy until the end.
I picked up the shovel, and listened closely to the murmuring of a rising tide around me. I found my body was shaking, as was my mind. He was dying. The blonde moved over to a rock and sat down. She was wet to the skin, breathing hard as though she had been swimming. I looked down at the shovel in my hand. Then I held it close to my eyes and examined it carefully. I could see my fingerprints all over it. I gathered a fistful of cloth from my thigh and tried to rub it off. But my hands didn’t stop to tremble. 「Take a breath. Take it deep」said the blonde, shaking her body and scattering the mingled petrol and blood everywhere. A beacon lamp had lighted through the body bold relief and it was the upper part of the body unlike any I had ever imagined. The direction of the beam of light exaggerated a burn of his head. Long after the beam had gone by, the view of its lighting remained inside me. It is a disagreeable thing, but when you are suffering a torment, and would give anything speed up time, it has a disobliging habit of slowing down. There was an anchored heaviness in my depth, and the sound of waves had persistently echoed with its motion. I bent forward, my head in my hands to keep my will to live from discouraging thoughts. 「You’ll be all right after some rest」she smiled. I tried to recall what I had been wishing about before I had killed. 四対二、と掲載反対の方が多数のようでしたので、第一章までで終わりにいたします。 読んでくださった方には、心よりの御礼を申し上げます。